To smoke or not.. the question I am trying to answer from the last two years. A battle I am losing with myself (surprisingly somewhere I want to be lost)
Of course like all smokers, even I do realise the ill-effects of smoking, especially among women. Like every smoker I ask these questions to myself and I guess most of us give ourselves more or less the same answers:
Q: Will I really get cancer if I keep smoking like this?
Ans: No, you won’t. That happens to people who smoke like 20 a day. You are restricted to 4. On weekends 8-9 per day.
Q: But what if I am diagnosed with a lung cancer or serious throat problem?
Ans: Well everyone has to die. Better live your life than regret at end.
Q. Ok, how about I smoke only on weekends? Just when I am drinking and partying.
Ans (on a weekday) One cigarette a day won’t harm me much. (BTW, it all starts with smoking only on weekends, before you realise you have been gripped)
And so, my cigarette quitting dates kept getting delayed and delayed. And it definitely not helps at all, when you stay with 2 smokers, you will be tempted to smoke and your garbage bin will be well fed with cigarette butts everyday. And that’s exactly how my life is going until today. I read about this ‘Master Cleanser’. No, I haven’t started this diet yet, so if you are reading this post to know more about the diet, you will be disappointed. (I will try to write about the diet once I get on to it) Well, so I was smoking till last night and decided to go for the Master Cleanser from the next morning (i.e. today) but then I realised, “Really? Shouldn’t you give your body at least 3 non-drinking-smoking days and then starts off with the cleansing plan to remove toxins from the body”.
So I thought okay I won’t really smoke for the next 3 days. It’s been almost 10 hours that I haven’t smoked and I have asked myself at least 10 times, why am I actually doing this? aaah..those same old questions again.
Now I realise there are two kinds of smokers: People who are physically dependent on it and would actually quit if they are VERY determined AND people who do not want to quit at all, in-spite knowing all the repercussions it brings! I am very ashamed to say, I fall in the second category.
And I guess after my Master Cleanse is finished, I may resume back the smoking. Or if something life-changes happens during the Master Cleanse diet that I would just not put that tempting rolled tobacco in my mouth anymore, I guess I will call it quits!
Have any of you ever tried quitting smoking? Did you succeed? Did you get back? Do you also fall in the same category as me of not really WANTING to quit or do you actually want to quit but are not able to.
Let me know in your comments below 
